A mother held hostage : my journey with Jon

- To observe your child. To note that he is different from the rest. His behaviors are irrational, unpredictable, compulsive. He is also creative, talented, exceptional.- To live with an angry child who hates himself, to see him turn to illegal substances as a way to forget and block out the pain, to hear him talk of wanting to die.- To stand vigil at a hospital bedside, calling a child back from a deep sleep and death wish to life that is yet another round of struggle, medications, and rejections.- To resent being controlled by the needs of another who is out of control, to lose my own health and be furious with red-hot anger that he has stolen my life.- To not have life turn out as you would have chosen, but to know deep down beneath the pain that you've found life and God in ways you never knew possible when all was smooth.… (more)